Take authority and command the demonic spirits attached to your soul to go after forgiving everyone that has wronged you and repenting of your *Sin & Pride* Then, when a negative thought comes to mind, you say "I silence the voice of the enemy in Jesus name".
True Believers or followers of Jesus are to honour him by living a life of PURITY, Righteousness and Holiness, Fasting and Prayer, Praise and Worship, etc.
Every gift you have is meant to reflect God's glory, *NOT BUILD YOUR OWN KINGDOM.* Just as Stars don't Shine to bring attention to themselves but to light up the dark night sky.
It is beautiful to have the physical manifestations of God presence around us, but we are not always going to have that because we need to grow IN ALL AREAS as Christians.
You can receive the Holy Spirit by Repentance and Becoming Born Again. *THERE IS NO OTHER WAY.* Church attendance or Tithes and Offerings *CANNOT SAVE YOU!*